I Feel Myself Torrent Now

"I feel myself torrent," I whispered into the collar of my jacket.

The words came out wrong. They always did. But for the first time, they felt true. i feel myself torrent

Outside, the clouds were gathering again. Good, I thought. Let it come. "I feel myself torrent," I whispered into the

I stood in front of the bathroom mirror. My hair was a nest. My eyes were red. But for the first time in years, I recognized the person looking back. Not because she was calm. Because she was moving. "I feel myself torrent

On the seventh day, the torrent slowed. Not stopped—never that. But slowed enough for me to see the shape of what had been underneath all along. Not a wreck. Not a ruin.